Newly divorced and dating
Granted, I still almost lost it in the front seat of David Horowitz's car the summer before junior year of high school.I almost gave it up for him, and I let him put his hand down my pants, but I had to draw the line.And I just kept thinking: what was a great sexual relationship in comparison to all this?
But making out with Mike always felt so mechanical.My feelings for him became overwhelming and I worried I'd have an affair with him — or at least try to.I stopped seeing him, but because of him, I knew that I was capable of feeling that way.He could never stay hard long enough to get inside of me.
And I could never get excited enough to let him in.
I certainly wasn't going to do it with some guy who was going away to college in a few weeks, and I wasn't going to lose it in his dad's beat-up Ford Escort.